Circumstances.... Crazy Circumstances

(copied from MD)

posted 4/18/2006 6:39:40 PM

I few blogs ago I told how my ex-boyfriend contacted me and wanted to work things out. We've been talking every once in a while since then. Weren't making much progress but ya know that's life sometimes. Things started getting nasty a few days ago and just kind of went completely down hill since then. I found out that one of my friends from work has been contacting him and a few of the ladies in his friends list trying to cause problems. I know her intentions were good and her heart was in the right place but in reality it only pushed him further away. This morning he finally contacted me. Me thinking it was to settle things between us was completely thrown off guard when he told me he was going to make me happy by killing himself. I wouldn't have to worry about him anymore and all of his problems would be solved. Well his might but what about the people who care about him and love him? Oh I know that this was likely a ploy to get my sympathy and it worked but it also made me very angry that he could even think about doing something like that. Especially if it was just to gain sympathy. But in the same respect it was also a cry for help. So I reached out to two different people on this site and they pulled through for me in a wonderful way. I was given a shoulder to cry on, support, advice and prayers. I want to thank them for being there for me. You are true friends! This whole situation drained me emotionally. But also made me very thankful that I have my life together. I am by no means perfect but I have people that I can reach out to and ask for help and I am not afraid to do that. Some people are for fear it will make them weak. Or people will think less of them. It also showed me that not everyone knows what unconditional love is. I could have sat back and judged him like most other people would have or shown him the love that God has shown me. I decided to show him the Love that God has given me. I do not know what effect that will have on him but at the moment he is rethinking his life and working things out with his parents and his employer. He and I have also made amends.Where it will go from here I do not know. But I am happy with being friends and knowing that maybe I helped him in some way that will change his life. So my day ended up much better then it started out. Thank God for that!